wow

It's funny how i make diaries, journals, and now blogs and totally think im gonna stick with it, but never doo... ahah. well this summer has been amazing. i've made soo many new friends i have no idea what im going to do next year. this girl brittany, well shes fuckin awesome, and errk? i love them both. their sooo tight! and well michelee is my best friend again and im soo happy. i missed that bitch. we've been through sooo much over the years im glad were back together and weeds not the number one thing anymore. She's dating this kid and i actually approve. he's a cool kid, a lil crazy but its all good ahah.
this summer has changed me. ive kinda grown up and yet been a kid too. ive made some really close friends with people and im so glad. fuckin seth and all them are tight i guess, even if they piss me off.
i tried thizz and well idk ya i liked it but im way to afraid of it. i might do it one more time at the end of the summer but that's it. probably never again or not for a long long long long time. im really scared of it.
gah im in hawaii right now and i was thinking that i probably would've had a better time stayin home... its just im soo bored and its not as fun as it used to be. i wish i could drive cause it would make it soo much better
but fuck i really get annoyed with my family. its like me and shae are now on the side with amanda and lucas and my dad. were the outcasts... that standout and take the pictures of the "perfect family" its fuckin stupid. everything i say to him goes through one ear and out the other. lucas is my lil bro. he officially annoys the shit out of me yet i cant help but love him... amanda gets a lil too harsh on him a lot but the kid really needs to learn to listen. i love my sister, we can truly be ourselvesaround eachother. she's amazing but sometimes it makes me laugh cause she idk kinda tries to be like me or do things like me... like taking pictures, or wanting to be a photographer.. ahha it makes me laugh! wow. it amazes me how somepeople just cant be their own person and have to bounce ideas off of someone else..
but whatever their family andi love them, just i need my alone time haha


eeeek this school year is gonan be amazing. i feel like i have soo many peoplei can count on, but like i said i have no idea who im gonna hangout with! ive made soo many friends with different groups, and frankly, i don't really want to hangout with mindy's group anymore... like ill hangout everyonce in a while but its getting old just walkin to sunnyside everyday then sitting down and cahtting. it's fun sometimes i have to admit but i need a change. im ready for something different...

it sucks to think that jasmine and hannah really arent in my life anymore considering they were my best friends for sooo long, this whole year pretty much. its weird to me that now their off on their own... and i sometimes wonder if they ever miss me like i miss them. we had sooo much fun together. me michelee hannah and jasmine... until we got caught, that changed everything.. i quit and they stayed the same.
it sucked but i kept up with it... i still smoke occasionally but i always have that thought in the back of my mind that my mom is gonna test me or something, so i try not too
im happy with my life, even without a guy.
i kinda just wish i had someone, but i quessim okayy

asjd;dslfk lifes good, idk maybe ill keep up with this blogger thing.. kinda nice to vent to;]